P90X (R2) Day 3, Shoulders & Arms

I did half of my work out today. Time slipped away, and then I had kids distracting me. But I worked my butt off for the 36 minutes that I did do.

Took my supplements, and probiotic this morning. Working on the water.

Had a me day, took some mental time to think up plans...muah ha ha. Now to just implement everything.

Tomorrow...YOGA X..oh my!

P90X is going to give me my nice ass back :o)

P90X (R2) Day 2 Plyometrics: LOVE it! I'm so much stronger, even tho I was exhausted. I did skip Hot Foot, because lets face it, my foot is already burning...haha. Seriously, that one would NOT be good for my injured foot. But I did do squatting jacks! WhooEeee! I was so impressed. My legs are strong and I am so confident that I will get that hot ass back I had way back when. There is NO reason why not. And I'm determined that I will have hot buns, buns of steel and a POW butt that younger girls will envy. And why not! Between my hard work, P90X, Jon Gabriel, and my gluten-free/refined-sugar-free there's no way I won't achieve all I set out to. So take that! Yep, I'ma gonna have some junk in my trunk, and it won't include the junk yard. ahhhahhha. Gotta love endorphins!

A Promise IS A Promise...

...especially when u make it to yourself. I promised myself that I would do P90X today. And I made myself keep it. I didn't start until 10:10pm, which is NOT the best idea on the planet, but I did it...well what I COULD do tonight. I completed 1.5 of the 2 rounds tonight. But in my defense, inspite of the time, and the fact that I was already exhausted and a bit bummed out, I kicked my own ass. Instead of sticking strictly to the exercise bands for the pull-ups, I did actual pull-ups, plus the bands. It's a LOT harder than one would think. I loved it. My muscles were screaming. Trouble is, it wears you out faster than just the bands. By time I hit the 1.5 mark (40 mins approx) I was toast...like weak, nauseaus and just wiped out. I brought my A game and I'm proud of it. Totally going to soak in the jacuzzi bath right now. I need it.

Eating...gluten free- check...sugar-free-not so much. I made ribs and home made BBQ sauce which included sugar. Water-not enough. Supplements-some. Vitamins- nope. Digestive enzymes-nope.

One thing I notice..my joints hurt. I'm pretty sure it's because of the sugar. When I'm sugar-free, I'm not in pain. The last time I did P90X, I was sugar-free and gluten-free for almost 4 months before I started. I'm noticing the difference. All the more reason to smarten up and get off that poison. Tomorrow, zero refined-sugar!

Goals for tomorrow: EVERYTHING I DIDN'T DO TODAY!

I mean business here. I'm on a mission, and I WILL NOT fail myself. This means TOO much to me...and I CANNOT wait to succeed...which I totally will! :o)

Bring on tomorrow! Ha. I'm ready for u!

Ok, here we go.

So after a weekend totally OFF the wagon...yep, even tho I had good intentions, I totally went off the wagon...but it's ok. I'm not regretting it, I'm not crying over it, I'm not getting all boohoohoo over it...I made the choice and now I'm making another choice to move on and get back into the groove. Today is P90X day, I had this plan all along, ! Whooshaw baby! Yep. I also have a lot of house work to do, but one thing I do know is that today starts my round 2. Not an "attempt" at round 2...I'm going to DO it. And I WILL do it every day/night unless I'm out of town, but then if I'm out of town, I'll go for a jog or a walk.

Today is also gluten-free/refined-sugar-free day. I know it's going to be a bit of a struggle today. That happens when I've been eating sugar. But you know what?? My body is ready. My body aches and I'm not moving as fluidly, as effortlessly as I was on this eating regimen. So, it's back at it today, because I have goals and I know they will be difficult for MY body to achieve if I'm eating gluten and sugar.

Plan of attack: DRINK TONS OF WATER! Supplements! When I'm hungry, eat what I want with the exception of anything with GLUTEN and Refined SUGAR!

WORRIES:I have a few worries about this upcoming 5K in June. My foot is still injured. I don't know what it is, but I do suspect a crack somewhere. I don't know. When I jog, I'm in agony for a couple of days which subsides to just pain and aching, but it's still there. I haven't jogged since...Wednesday, which I should have waited and done on Thursday. Wednesday night I was in so much foot pain, the freaking thing was on fire and I couldn't lay it on the bed in any position without incredible pain. SO, this is going to be tricky. What am I supposed to do, NOT jog, NOT get some training in and get ready for the 5K and then be disappointed if I cannot do it? Or Train, jog 2-3 times a week in preparation, and not let it heal, but get some training and some conditioning in? Sort of a catch 22 for me. I guess I'll have to play it by ear. That bugs me.

Okay, this is a great day...going to be a DOER, not a non-doer. I watched a movie the other night, and the first monologue really hit home for me. He said "there are two types of people in this world. Those who do, and those who do not. Those who do are the ones who get things done and change the world, those who do not, don't"...something like that. Anyway, for a long time I was a dreamer, a 'doer-in my mind.' I had potential, but I never lived up to it. I know a large part of it was the sugar & gluten cloud in my brain, the body that felt too fat and sick to do anything. I hated not living up to my potential. I used to call myself an 'under-achieving over-achiever'. A total oxy-moron...but that's what I was. WAS. I've been on a journey to change that. To change from a wisher-doer, a hoper-doer, a dreamer-doer and started actually DOING. That's what has been circling around in this brain of mine for a while now, and when I heard that line from the movie, it was a total "aha" moment. And yes, that's what I'm going to do, that's what I'm doing. I'm DOING from now on. No more waiting for others to do things for me! No more waiting for this weight to miraculously fall of me! No more NOT DOING! This is the era of Lisa, The Doer. Ha. Look out everything that needs to get done around here, and my body. Lisa's comin for ya! HA!

Another gluten-free/refined sugar-free day.

This afternoon was sort of stressful. I unbandaged Emilys knee, and was preparing her for a shower, when I hear "mom, I'm feeling kinda dizzy." I get there just in time to grab her as she grabbed for me, and she goes down like a sac of potatoes. The "I feel dizzy" turned into a full out fainting spell, complete with eyes rolling up and everything. It only lasted like 30 seconds but it was enough to scare the crap outta me. When she 'came to' she goes "mom I can't hear"....great. I put a pillow under her head and calm her down...her hearing was only out for a few seconds too, but her head was killing her, and her hand was shaking, shock likely. Next it was "I'm going to be sick!" Nausea, she was white as a ghost. Okay, panick was setting in.
I call my husband and he arranges to meet me in town at the hospital. After she was feeling better, I get my youngest ready and help Emily into the van. We spend 3.5 hours in emerg. Happily, they let her go lay down after triage, because of her knee surgery that she had on Monday, and likely because she could faint again, it was anyones guess. We wait...she recovers. They do an Electrocardiogram (ECG) just to make sure, but the Doctors diagnosis was fainting because of leg pain, getting up from a laying position the blood pools, not enough food, and likely left over codeine in her system from the night before. Her ECG was good. I'm happy he did that test. Now I can rest easily tonight...but it was pretty scary there for a while.
So now food.....well, I had an angus burger...and I was soooo tempted to just eat the bun. But I didn't. That makes day number 2 successful as well...and it was a higher stress day to boot.

I do have a girl evening planned with a close friend of mine, and I already know it's going to entail a blizzard from DQ...she already warned me. So I'm going to go with the flow, and instead of counting it as a failure day, or a streak being broken, I'm going to allow for it, and then get back on the wagon immediately after...not the next day, immediately! And you know...that's one thing most of us do wrong...we think we have to wait until the sun sets and rises in order to start fresh. Well, who made that rule? Why can't we have an 'exception' and then get right back up and start with the water, and keep on the right path, right then and there. If we all did that, there would be a lot less binges, a lot less 'to hell with it' moments. So that's my plan.

Two-fer!

Ha! What are the chances that I'm blogging twice in ONE DAY! WOW.

Some status updates. Day 1 of gluten-free/sugar-free is a success!

I also went for a jog...but I walked more on the way home...my legs hurt. It works better if I leave 2 days in between jogs...and I also went farther tonight, up more steep, rocky hills. I followed the trail...likely wasn't that smart at dusk, what with bears and other wild life around here...I survived. And I didn't even get eaten alive by black flies. After the rainy day we had here, it cooled off some. I still sweated my booty off...but no picking wings out of my teeth. Haha. Ahhh...gotta love those endorphins eh. Love'em!

Living in the Moment.

So yeah,....I've let life stop my progress, and that's the last thing I wanted to do. I'm not doing that any more. I have goals and I cannot let anything..ANYTHING impede my progress. SO when stress crops up, and I know it will, I'm going to do the opposite of what my initial reaction would be...which is hide, cower in a corner, turn to junky food, withdraw from interaction with friends. I'm going to go after these goals with all the umph I can muster. Funny how in anyones blog you'll find these up beat posts followed by the "I'm in a slump" posts followed by the recovery post. That's the human spirit. You just can't break the human spirit in someone who is a strong passionate person.
I do have a renewed zest and zeal and passion. I don't think I will 'experiment' with going off my gluten-free/sugar-free thing for a looong time. I may have a little sumthin sumthin here and there, but to forgo it all together, that's when I run into trouble.
I'm at a weird place in life. I'm going to be 40 this year. I'm yearning for more. It's time I actively go after the things I want, so that I can be my best, feel my best and look my best that I can in this life, right now. No more looking backwards. Time to live in the now. Yes my future will be amazing, but only if I keep working towards it in the now.
I think most people become complacent. Most people get themselves feeling great, they do what works for them, and for some reason, they temporarily forget why and how they got to that wonderful place, where there is a balance between health and fitness and life. We cannot forget the thing that allows us to be our best, to feel our best, to achieve our best, just because we have a measure of comfort. It's that one thing that will ensure we continue to feel our best, be our best, achieve our best.
So, for me, there is only now. What can I do "NOW", in THIS moment, to ensure I'm on the right path towards fulfilling my goals? It's not only one day at a time, it's one moment at a time. And really, shouldn't we be doing that anyway? Living in the moment! If we're not, we're missing out on so many wonderful moments that we're letting slip by us. Yes, our eyes can be on the future, but we cannot be fixated on future things. Breathe in now. Breathe in this moment. Live life to the fullest now. It's the only way to ensure we actually have a future to look forward to.